GOALS: mental

Yeah, beyond the physical, setting goals gets a lot tougher. This might be the toughest category of all.

WEAKNESSES and goals
Note that I'm calling this "weakness" rather than "bad" because your mental state, I believe, is neither good nor bad, it just is -- but it's definitely malleable.

I'm an anxious person. I fret over things. I want to be a less anxious person. I want to calm the constant stream of internal talking that goes on in my mind.

I have a very short attention span, but somehow I don't think this part of me will change. But in terms of these goals -- the goals of the entire radical self recreation plan -- I'm going to at least have to keep that generalized goal in the cross hairs for the rest of my life, however long that may be.

GETTING THERE: wow, not sure how to reach this one. Meditation? I've tried it a million times and could never sit still for more than five minutes -- see above. I can't even begin to think about "an empty mind" for more than five seconds. I have a hard time believing that one could sit still and have a clear mind at all. Nothing? No thought? No way! Again -- the physical is essential. My clearest minds have come when I've been pushing myself to physical extremes. How to transfer that to a less-intense physical state, well, that's another question.